To The Person Struggling With ANXIETY


I am Jourdyn and I struggle with anxiety. 

Yes, you read that right. I am Jourdyn and I do struggle with anxiety. I can not pin point when it started because for as long as I can remember I have got worked up and stressed over situations. Even in grade school I would come home worked up about a situation, then in high school, and in college it still continues. Before I continue let me get one thing straight, I am not writing this because I want people to feel bad for me or to get attention. I am writing this because I want people to know that they are not alone. 

It took me until I got into college to pin point my overthinking and getting worked. I always just thought I was a girl being dramatic. Lets be real, in middle school and high school for me it might have been. Once I got to college it became very real there was no drama behind it. Most of my anxious moments have been me all alone. It has been me crying in my room alone during the early hours of the morning. I may not be able to fix my anxious heart, but I know someone who can. His name is Jesus!

"Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."
1 Peter 5:7

This past Saturday, once again, my mind went to a dark place filled with anxiety. I was filled with so much frustration towards myself. I was anxious over something that may seem so stupid to others, but it felt  very real to me. After the tears came I began to hyperventilate. I realized it was not good. I also realized that I was not going to be able to get myself out of the mess I had dug myself into. I began to pour out my heart to the one who already knew and continues to know what is going on. I prayed. I gave God full control over my situation. I put my worry and frustration into his hands. I felt so much better after that. He helped me turn the negative thoughts into positive ones. Then I thought about something different.

"He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart."
Psalm 91:4

I know this is kind of a short post, but to anyone reading this I want you to know you are not alone. I may not be able to tell you a magic formula to forgetting all your anxious thoughts, but I know someone who wants to know your heart. I know the ultimate healer whose love is stronger than any medicine. I know Jesus loves both me and you and he is here for us through this difficult time. I encourage you to call on the name of Jesus when your mind starts to wander to those dark places. 

P.S  No Matter what, I want to encourage, be an accountability partner to you, pray, and befriend you. I am on social media as @406_jourd on Instagram and @jourdynMack101 on Twitter, give me a follow and feel free to DM me anytime. If you ever need prayer or someone to talk to email me, jourdynpuppies@gmail.com, don't laugh it is from fourth grade and I stuck with it. 

P.P.S Want to see more encouraging posts? I used to write for Odyssey Online, so if you want to see more check out the link below.


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