The Browning Tribune

You are called and capable. HE calls you worthy.  "Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? And not one of them is forgotten before God. Why, even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not; you are of more value than many sparrows." Luke 12:6-7 Lately I have been feeling like there is no way someone could look at me the same if they knew all the baggage I carry. I know God has forgiven me, but somehow I still struggle to believe that others could accept me even if they heard the stories about me from my high school years and the beginning of my college experience. I often think to myself that no one would recognize me if they saw the first semester Jourdyn.  I have also realized over the past few months that this is the devils way of trying to pull me away from my Father. He uses this lie and the lie of many others to tell me that I am not good enough. He tries to get me to give up.  I look back to two summers ago when I was on sum...

I am Jourdyn and I struggle with anxiety .  Yes, you read that right. I am Jourdyn and I do struggle with anxiety. I can not pin point when it started because for as long as I can remember I have got worked up and stressed over situations. Even in grade school I would come home worked up about a situation, then in high school, and in college it still continues. Before I continue let me get one thing straight, I am not writing this because I want people to feel bad for me or to get attention. I am writing this because I want people to know that they are not alone.  It took me until I got into college to pin point my overthinking and getting worked. I always just thought I was a girl being dramatic. Lets be real, in middle school and high school for me it might have been. Once I got to college it became very real there was no drama behind it. Most of my anxious moments have been me all alone. It has been me crying in my room alone during the early hours of the morning...

I looked my fear dead in the face.  This week I had to face a fear that has been haunting me for over six months. As many of you know, in February I was on my way to Bozeman and did not make it there. My car lost control and I ended up in a 20 foot irrigation ditch. Thank God only my car was messed up and not me. Ever since that day I have been afraid to drive Montana Highway 55 alone. I stared my fear in the face on Wednesday. I got my days mixed up and thought I had to be in Three Forks that afternoon, but turns out that is next week. I did not do this for nothing though. I think it was God' s way of helping me overcome something I have been afraid of for so long. I prayed for God to protect me the whole time I was driving. I gripped my steering wheel tighter than ever before. Then I got to thinking what is fear when Jesus is on my side? This summer I came to the realization that I am a fearful person. If you looked at me you might not see this at first glance because not...