It Is Time To Stop Believing The Lies Saying We Are Not Enough

You are called and capable. HE calls you worthy. 

"Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? And not one of them is forgotten before God. Why, even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not; you are of more value than many sparrows."

Luke 12:6-7

Lately I have been feeling like there is no way someone could look at me the same if they knew all the baggage I carry. I know God has forgiven me, but somehow I still struggle to believe that others could accept me even if they heard the stories about me from my high school years and the beginning of my college experience. I often think to myself that no one would recognize me if they saw the first semester Jourdyn. 

I have also realized over the past few months that this is the devils way of trying to pull me away from my Father. He uses this lie and the lie of many others to tell me that I am not good enough. He tries to get me to give up. 

I look back to two summers ago when I was on summer staff at a Young Life Camp. I was in one of the most special places on earth and yet I had let my heart wonder to a dark place. I believed the lies coming from satan. I believed I was not "Young Life enough'' to be accepted. I believed I was just this weird girl from Montana who had a crazy dream to start YL on her college campus. I believed I was not like the people around me. I even convinced myself the people around me did not want to know me. 

I believed these lies until my intern in the bakery basically told me "more people like you than you think, stop throwing a pity party for yourself." That was a wake up call for me to pull it together and be who God says I am. Later in the session Mikayla gave me this rock saying "i am... worthy." That rock changed my whole perspective. I wrote a blog post on Odyssey last year, but worthiness has taken a deeper meaning. It is still SO important and relevant to my life and I think it will always be something I have to remind myself of. 

I still have this rock. It sits on my dresser for me to remind myself of the truth every morning. I even take it on big trips to remind myself that I am worthy of where God is sending me. This special rock came with me on my trip to Georgia and lived on my desk in my office all summer long. It is such an amazing reminder of who God says I am. 

It is over a year later since God showed me this truth, but I still struggle to believe it. I struggle to believe it when it comes to friendships, relationships, work, school, and so much more. It is hard to remember I am worthy especially when no one else sees that I am. Reminding myself that "i am... WORTHY" is something I have to constantly remind myself of. I have to remind myself that God does not see me as inadequate, HE sees me as CALLED and CAPABLE. 

“Can a woman forget her nursing child, that she should have no compassion on the son of her womb? Even these may forget, yet I will not forget you."

Isaiah 49:15

I know this can be tough to remember that you are worthy, especially when others can not seem to believe it. I want you to know I believe you are worthy and more than that HE calls you worthy. If others do not see or believe this in you it is their loss. My friend, WORTHY is one of many attributes God has placed in you. I encourage you to take insecurity and doubt to the one who can cover the lies in HIS truth and ask for HIM to help you remember who you are in HIS eyes.

P.S  No Matter what, I want to encourage, be an accountability partner to you, pray, and befriend you. I am on social media as @406_jourd on Instagram and @jourdynMack101 on Twitter, give me a follow and feel free to DM me anytime. If you ever need prayer or someone to talk to email me, jourdynpuppies@gmail.com, don't laugh it is from fourth grade and I stuck with it. 

P.P.S Want to see more encouraging posts? I used to write for Odyssey Online, so if you want to see more check out the link below.